Bittersweet Friday

I am going to check in at the Double Treee Hotel Downtown in a couple of hours. Getting ready at a nice 2 room suite before a night of dinner, drinks, socializing. I'm excited and my bud Alisa is on her way to meet me.

My mom called this afternoon, left a message on my cell phone and now I have feelings of sadness. Grandma Lerry is dying. Hospice has been called. She leaves two faithful, loving daughters and a healthy husband. I spoke with my mom and I can tell that after months of close-calls this is really it. She may not make it through the night.

I told my mom to tell Grandma Lerry that I love her. That Morgan loves her. My thoughts are with my Aunt Berta, my mama, Pa and my siblings and two cousins. I'm scared of funerals.

I know I should probably go home tonight and be with my mom. Have a chance to tell Grandma Lerry goodbye before she goes away forever. But I have plans and I can't do anything tonight that would change any outcomes. And that's why I'll be drinking away the weirdness I feel in the pit of my stomach.

I hate death. I dead people. Luckily, I have only been to two funerals and only one that I remember: Uncle John. He was way too young. My family misses him very much. And we will also miss Grandma Lerry. What will happen to Pa?

Do I watch to much Nancy Grace?

Or is there really a lot more crazy people out there these days? From the Caylee and Casey Anthony case to the fake abduction of a mom and 9 y.o. to missing little girls - It's hard to feel safe.

I'm addicted to Nancy though. I even downloaded her show's theme song as a ringtone. But I'm too embarrassed to actually use it. I want to be Nancy when I grow up. How can I accomplish this?

UPDATE! Sage Spotted

Arthur just texted me he saw Sage earlier today. He ran away when he opened the door. But, hey, Sagey is still ALIVE. I'll get him in as soon as I get home. Hurray!

Baby Steps... More like Old Lady Steps and Missing Sage

I walked on my own two feet in my own tennis shoes! Yup, yesterday evening, my therapists made me put on my shoes and get up. Standing was weird, walking even weirder. It feels like it's someone's else foot. I'm supposed to be wearing my tennis shoes around the house now. I still have the boot for work and public since everything below my left knee is so so so weak. I feel like I could collapse at any moment. But it was a definite accomplishment.

I think my cat Sage is gone for good this time. He isn't fixed (I am such a bad cat mother) so when he escapes the apartment he often doesn't come back in for days at a time. However, I am usually able to get him in by calling his name either in the morning or at night. No such luck this time. I think he's been gone since Thursday and I haven't seen him since Friday morning when Lily scared him away from the back porch. I love that kitty so much and he only loved me. He was shy, but the sweetest most loving cat ever. He snuggled me so hard at night that he would move my crochet away with his head so I could get to him. Sometimes he would sit on my bed and meow for me to come to bed already. That was Sage and I's time together everyday. Watching Nancy Grace and petting my little orange cat.

Arthur and I had an arguement last night about what could happened to him. I hope and pray that he just found a family that fed him and they didnt have a big, annoying, slobbering dog. That he lives a peaceful life with them. Arthur said he was eaten by a hawk or an owl. I don't think there are owls big enough that could eat a cat. Or he was just run over. Whatever happened to him, I hope he's happy and knows how much I love and miss him. WHo know? he could be waiting for me when I get home. I hope he is. Sage, please come home!!!!

The Tuesday After

Love that it's already Tuesday. You just can't beat weeks without Mondays, right? Although, I already have a full calendar for the weekend. Alisa on Friday and a staff event on Sunday.

The weekend was fun - at the least the part I was up for was. On Friday evening I met Sadie, Royale, Kerry, Laura and her bf James at Trudy's for dinner and drinks. It was fun catching up - although I had to stand up for Meredith and ended up making Laura cry. But I'm Meredith's friend and I just want to look at her choices as learning experiences. Keep it positive. They all went downtown, but I had to go home and put my foot up.

On Saturday afternoon Royale and Anderson hosted their engagement party at the Pence Ranch. I stayed about 4 hours and then had to go home to put the ankle up. I pretty much stayed that way the rest of the weekend. The BBQ was great. Caught up with more friends and Amanda and Mark ended up spending the night at my apartment later that evening. I brought everyone breakfast tacos and biscuits the next morning. I love being a good hostess.

Yesterday, Arthur and I just sat around, watched a lot of tv and ate too much food. But, honestly, that's all I really feel like doing anyway. I have my first real physical therapy appointment this evening and I will be having them every Tuesday and Thursday for a while I guess. I did my PT homework every day this weekend - so I guess I give myself an A+. The weird part so far doing my PT stuff is how little I can move my left calf, shin, foot, ankle, even my toes. It hurts big time when I have to move my toes. OUCH!

DGMDWR2K9

If you're cool than you know what that means. Since I will assume the worst it means Delta Gamma Memorial Day Weekend Reunion 2009. It's the second annual I believe. I hope I remember to take pics so I can post them here.

I went to my first physical therapy session this morning. My cast came off yesterday afternoon and I was put in a removeable air boot with the words, "you cannot hurt your ankle. I made it too strong". I replay those words over and over again since I always think I am hurting my ankle. Anyway, the therapist was awesome - we got along great! And I think it's going to be an interesting experience relearning how to use my ankle, foot, even my toes!

The new air-boot cast is soooooooo much better than my cast was. For one, my whole foot and leg feels like its wrapped in pillows - not hard plaster. Every step hurt with the cast as it hit my foot, shin and calf. This thing just fits snug and is inflated with air. But Dr. Dalton, my ankle doc, says I should be outta this boot in a week. ONE WEEK?! We'll see. I can't even imagine putting on a shoe, much less walking on that leg - putting actual weight on that leg!

OK - back to DGMDWR2K9 (now that you know what it stands for) kicks off tonight at Trudy's North (the one by me). I'm meeting Sadie and Royale and we're gonna save seats for the rest as they come into town. It's my first time doing anything besides work and teeny tiny amount of shopping. So I'm craving a margarita or a mexican martini with my whole being mainly. And since I'm not ready to go downtown after the long dinner - I'm close to home to drive without too much worry. Plus, Arthur is staying in town and could pick me up if need be.

Royale and Anderson's engagement party is tomorrow afternoon at her parents' ranch. Gonna be fun and relaxing. But no pooltime for me - not just yet. My wounds haven't even begun healing since they havent had air.

Is it Gonna be Adam or Chris?

Last night, the finale of American Idol rocked the house. Pure Music Entertainment. But tonight we find out who will win. I voted for Adam seven times. He is my definition of a rock god. He sings and performs better than most current famous musicians. Plus, I think Chris is a religious, married goody-goody. No offense. My sister loves him.

Yesterday I got three packages in the mail. It's like Christmas when you have packages waiting for you, right? Well, two of them contained books I had ordered online. But one contained "my editors choices" from Crafter's Choice. Somehow, during my surgey days, I must not have declined the club's choices and they were sent to me anyway. That explains that extra 35 bucks charged to my bank account. Well, now I have to send them back because I already have a book on window treatments and I don't think I'll ever have time (or the patience) for reupholstering furniture. The two best books I received are the ones pictured to the left. So I guess you can say I'm into crafting and gardening encyclopedias. A girl can never learn enough. At least if you're a girl like me.

Two days until DGMDWR2K9 (Delta Gamma Memorial Day Weekend Reunion 2009) begins. Emails have been bouncing around all week in anticipation. I, on the other hand, already feel funny about the whole thing since I'll still be in a boot and not in any condition to be bar-hopping, concert-going or wine-festing. But I will do my best to do what I hate doing: Going With the Flow. I promised Royale and Amanda I wouln't be annoying anyway. So, we'll see right?

Tomorrow the cast comes off!!! Hurray!!!! I hope it doesn't hurt and I hope hope hope it's easier to get around in. Wish me luck.